“(…) scientific and technical work routinely implicates politics. (…) Technological ideas and technological things are not politically neutral: routinely, they have strong, built-in tendencies.”
Isn’t it fascinating that even when we think we’ve escaped things like “politics”, “power struggles”, we haven’t really? The reason I liked science for so long, the reason I wanted to bury my face and head in it, was so I didn’t have to deal with the very imperfect human world that is shaped and pushed back and forth by human vice: pride, greed, envy to pure destructive desires. Imagine my surprise when I discovered, heck, these bad things are everywhere. Even in the idealist and vice-fighter myself!
Not only are these found in all humans, they can also permeate everything we do, be it science, technology or philosophy. That was a sad realization for me, really.
From my earliest days I had a passion for science. But science, the exercise of the supreme power of the human intellect, was always linked in my mind with benefit to people. I saw science as being in harmony with humanity. I did not imagine that the second half of my life would be spent on efforts to avert a mortal danger to humanity created by science. (Rotblat, Nobel Peace Prize speech)
As I conclude with this argument, I want to get back to the first quote of “strong, built-in tendencies”. It is theses tendencies we have, that we transmit to our inventions, our ideologies, our thoughts, our actions. Even our science and technology. It convinces me more and more. We have a great affect on the things we do as broken people.
It convinces me in a way, though this might be somewhat of a leap, of the nature of science and technological advances: a nature that is not objective, but highly subjective and with dubious intentions behind it.
Anyways, the main reason I started even talking about this is because of a paper I had to read. Funny story about my encounter with this paper: I saved it in my to-read list during IAP/winter holiday (it was sent out to my school’s CS lab mailing list). As life got busy I did not manage to read it. Then as I take two classes this semester, they both require me to read this paper. Of course, it was a win-win moment for me 😀
The paper I’m quoting is this fascinating one from Phillip Rogaway: The Moral Character of Cryptographic Work. You can find the link for it here.
More about the paper: It has some great advice on how as a cryptographer one should view his work. Less of being only interested in the technical work and more awareness in the ethics and effects your work has. Which is a great lessor for all of us.
The video on empathy and sympathy: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Evwgu369Jw
It’s been about 4 years since I last wrote in this blog. I’ve been very busy for the duration of those 4 years: doing life, doing school, sometimes, even doing nothing. I’m sort of back now though, a very changed Erjona. So much has happened, dear friend. So much has changed.
However, I’m happy and the change is not something I see as bad at all! I’ve found new meanings, new thrills, new loves. Most importantly, my whole world-view has changed. Now the sun under which I see the world, is very different and very unexpected. I’ll keep talking cryptic for a while unfortunately, but hopefully the coming posts should give a good idea about what’s been happening so far 🙂
Spoiler alert: I’ve found something that makes me more excited than anything else. Something that has stolen my heart and has shifted my perspective in an amazing, thorough way. My heart has been stolen by the one I’ve been looking for my entire life. The one I loved long time ago as a child, the one I trust and believe in again now.
This is my first time taking a stab at writing a poetry in Spanish, so here it goes (it’s an assignment for a class):
Vienes en mi pecho, como un traicionero
Sé que no eres bueno para mí
Pero quizás es mi maldito destino ser junto a ti
País, país, país, país ridículo
No, ridículo es el amor que siento por ti
Ridículo es que no puedo olvidar
Ridículo es que no puedes alcanzar
Mentiras, ya te he olvidado tantas veces
Mentiras, son lo que me enseñaron de ti
No, no todo fue mentira, no
pero aun así
Ya no sé qué hacer por ti
Ya no sé cómo debería amar-a-ti
Ya no sé si debería preocuparme de ti
Pero, qué hay de mí?
Si no hay amor
Si no hay amor siquiera por ti?
Y si entregase mi cuerpo para ser quemado,
Que hay de mi si no hay amor por ti?
Y que hay de ti, si matas el amor de tus colibrís
Que hay de ti, si niegas el amor del unico salvador,
Que hay de ti?
“Dichosos son los que lloran
Porque serán consolados”
I’m dealing really well with being lonely right now, to be honest. I kind of like it 🙂
Being alone, having my own space to think and do whatever I feel like doing. I like this! I like my room too, mainly because it facilitates this new interest of mine on solitude.
Yeah. And an incredible post I found yesterday:
Greetings again world!
It’s difficult writing blogs, I must confess. This could also be attributed to the fact, that words don’t really come very easily to me. Or maybe to the fact that my English is not that perfect, and I die inside every time I can’t find the “mot juste” like the French say. My advisor (she’s French) says that this is mostly a problem that Europeans suffer from.
It’s just this terrible feeling of not being able to word your feelings or your ideas into something other humans can grasp. Conversing has turned into something I shun away from, debating has become a nightmare- unless something someone says is entirely out of line according to my principles and beliefs, I don’t even get involved in debates anymore. I hate not having the ability to debate well because of the thinking process that focuses on finding the words and thus makes me sometimes lose track of my train of thought. It’s quite a deficiency, and I hate my deficiencies! Guess my ego is a bit big… but then again according to Neil DeGrasse Tyson* that’s not true 😉
I know this is maybe too much of a talk on a personal, individual struggle and I don’t usually like to spend time on my personal issues; however! I learned this year, that myself counts too. That I need to care of myself as well… and running off, trying to only focus on worldly issues and/or issues of others is a bit cowardly. Indeed, personal struggle is useful because frequent self-reflection will be even more helpful to those worldly problems that trouble my heart and mind. I believe self-reflection makes one a better person. And I need to become a better person in order to change all the wrong my heart and eyes have seen and will see. I need to become a better person, a more knowledgeable person. The most knowledgeable I can!! The more knowledge I gain, the more different views I’m confronted with, the better I’ll become. I say this with quite some confidence, because it has proved to be right so far, and I can’t find any counter-example really 🙂 so being the ‘scientist’ that I claim to be, I’d say this is a scientific theory! It works! like Walter Lewin would say.
Tonight, as I’m waiting for my return home in less than two days, I’m trying out blogging and uselessly trying to put some stuff on paper regarding my summer plans… there’s a whole lot of idleness that has taken me over though 😦
I guess I’ll finish with that, and a hope of regaining my productivity. 🙂
Peace! Salaam! Shalom! Pace! Paqe!
Much love to the whole world! May God protect each and every one of the humans of this world 🙂
* – reference to the Big Think video on the Cosmic Perspective and the Ego by DeGrasse Tyson.